From Today I hope to write even more frequently may be everyday...

Lets see If I can put it up all right, It feels rugged when you are actually despised or deprived when you curse yourself ... I would try to restrict myself of being fiercely negative but its something like that I sometimes feel awkward kind of feelin that I had'nt acted right I should have pushed a lil further and things could have matured.. but its always a reflection kind of thing as becuz whenever I am alone on my way bk home or in a cab if I have nothin to do I just sit bk a nd reflect upon everything... and everything seems very clear i look the world as a selfish apple and after a few mins I repent as I myself think that it should have been evrybody's way....and evrything serves me right..... so it may seem that I am feelin all right now but my discrepancies will haunt me all night and I know that usually the debts and the daily accounts and loans open will not let me shut down my eyes .... but those lights down the lampost will ooze to daylight the stars givin way to the sharp sunrays... and Good morning !!